Powerless is the word that came to mind this morning.

When I was having to marry Him.
When I was a child.
When He hurt me.
When I was having to go to court to keep custody of my daughter.
When I was forced to have an abortion.
When I worked at *** and was bullied by my bosses.
When I was raped by my son’s donor.
When my mom told me she had cancer.
When my daughter was suicidal.
When dad lashes out.
When my child was so sick as a toddler.
Every single time my mom disowned me or rejected me….
Now especially.